It's a surprise to me, not an unpleasant one, how far my big “S” self has ‘traveled’ since my first foray into the concepts of personal power and energy back in the summer of 2003, when I traveled to California for a spiritual retreat. Seems like allot of that kind of stuff takes place in California! The travel I’m speaking of has less to do with geography, and more with the distance I have come from the lost, unhappy individual I once was to the spiritually aware, optimistic being I am and continue to become.
A journey is defined as, “distance traveled, a trip” (Thorndike, 1955). Transformation is defined as, “change in form, appearance, condition, nature or character.” My journey of transformation led to a profound distance traveled resulting in my personal ‘change in condition, nature and character’ – a remarkable leap forward in my perception of Self, others, spirit, life on earth, life beyond earth and the universe.
My search and breakthrough story goes like this…in 2003, over the course of 12 months, beginning with that trip to California when I began a doctoral program in transpersonal psychology, traveled back and forth across the country on my own for the first time, met and become engaged to a man, married for the first time, moved from the East Coast to the Midwest with 2 cats and a dog, left behind family and friends, resigned from a beloved job, sold my first home, became a wife for the first time, became a (step) mom for the first time, bought a new home, re-established ‘home’, friends and family, became divorced for the first time, became single again, left behind a precious (step) child, moved back across the country to another East Coast state (with the same 2 cars and a dog), re-established ‘home’, friends, and family, struggled with financial disaster (due to 2 cross-country moves and a divorce), found a new job and started a private practice. Minor were these external changes in comparison to the internal upheaval and personal growth.
Prior to that fated trip to California, I would most probably have viewed just one of these events as overwhelming. Now I look at these events, individually and collectively, as a gift from the universe, as opportunities to step out of imbalance, ego, and self-defeat into harmony, self value, and spiritual evolution. During that year, when I felt I was at my lowest was a crucial point – it was either a justification to stay in self-defeating patterns or an opportunity to respond anew and discover the spiritual deep within and far beyond. I chose the latter and felt the intensity of that shift deep within my being. In viewing these experiences as purposeful, filled with opportunity and potential, and as avenues of growth and healing (as opposed to victimization, the world against me, retribution, etc.), I came out on top, transformed in ‘condition, nature and character’.
Since then I have excelled professionally (as an entrepreneur and consultant), written and self-published 4 books (the most recent hit #1 on Amazon), created the extraordinary Monarch Method, am physically healthy and happy in my relationships with family and friends.
It is difficult for me to adequately and accurately describe the specific transformational moments, except to say that I very clearly recognized the crossroads, the opportunities, the poignant choices and paths that lay before me. This is not to say that I did not make mistakes - that I did not step away from my newly discovered spiritual self and from my truest nature more than once. However, I can s